22nd August 2012 2:30am
41 weeks. My super bulging tummy.
In anther 8 hours time I'll be seeing Doctor Don again which I thought last week was my last appointment! Shall be doing another round of non-stress testing in the clinic. It's a belt strapped around my belly with a machine to listen to my girl movement and heart rate. Then the test will show whether she is healthy and moving enough. From there he would then advise if induction is needed. Though I very much want a natural birth (with epidural) but I guess God knows what's best for me and my girl. Shall keep my fingers crossed!
As placenta can get old it can stop my baby from growing or not getting enough oxygen or if it still does its job my girl may get too big and I may have hard time pushing her out and thus she may have to be born the caesarean section.
"hmmm, mei mei..you are playing hard to get with mommy and daddy, we including your big brother are all eager to meet you!"
Suddenly I felt frightened with the thought of having to go through the labour procedure again. You can never be totally prepared for it no matter how many times of birth experiences you have! The love I soon will be feeling for my girl will also comes along the feeling of endless responsibilities.
I kept thinking, "can i really handle this?" Of cause I don't wish to stay pregnant stagnantly, but just the thought of moving forward requires so much of me, physically and mentally. But thank God I'm not alone in this. I have my dear hubby with me, I know he will be here me, and for our family.
Suddenly this verse reminds me.
I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS ME.
phil 4:13
yes, we can do it. =)
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